Something New

This year I prayed that if God would help me write the book I have longed to write, I would do my part if He'd do His.  Well, I've gotten the final push I need to sit myself down and put fingers to keyboard and just see what happens! What's so hard about writing a book when you're a writer? In the face of that final push, I realized I had some fears to face and boy were there many! If you know me or have read my blogs, you know I deal with fear quite often and it is the one thing that seems to hold me back from doing what I want to do in this life.

While I let thoughts bounce around in my brain like pinballs, I wondered, What the heck am I so afraid of? Well for starters, what if I don't really have a new or intriguing idea? What if this book goes no further than my hard drive and I've just wasted a lot of time? What if this book is a HUGE hit, what then?? What, if it even gets that far, will critics say about my book? This is like art for me, and like so many artists say, "I'm sensitive about my...stuff!"

And because I'm currently reading "Battlefield of the Mind", which I recommend to EVERYONE, I know that my thoughts can be like a tennis match where the players are Negative vs. Positive.  When Negative sends a ball my way, I slam that boy right back! What IF I don't have an intriguing idea? Truth be told, I don't, no one does! Everything under the sun has been written about at one point or another, but that's not my goal - to come up with an original idea - my goal is to help others on their journey to healthy living! And my experience isn't anyone else's AND no one can tell my story the way I can!

Then, what IF this book doesn't go further than my hard drive? Well that's not likely to be the case at all because my loudest cheerleader has the resources to help me polish my work then get it published, so it may not be a bestseller, but it won't just sit on my computer!

What IF it's a HUGE hit? Well, I have a very solid foundation for a home life and I know Babe is in my corner, especially if it means he can take off a little more time because he's not having to support our family alone.  I daydream about a book tour on any level, how cool would that be?!

And what will critics say? They'll say what they always say: some good stuff, some not so good stuff. Pay attention to it or don't, but how I react to it is up to me.

I say all of that to say, I'm going to do my part and put in the work to improve my writing and actually write on a schedule Monday through Friday (weekends with kids home just makes focusing too hard for me!).  In time I'll have a book of my own, in my own name, published.  If I can help just one person reach their goals for a healthy life, all of the procrastination, fear, blood, sweat and tears will ALL be worth it! Please pray for me and this project!