It's been twice now that I've planned, in my head, some time to spend "just being girls" with Jay. Not so long ago this was fool-proof and we both really enjoyed it! But these days it seems when my baby girl gets any free time, she quickly has something planned with friends, namely her best friend. I must mention that she doesn't know of my mental plans, so who wouldn't want to hook up with the homies?!
Anyway, on Friday night I planned on finding something for us to watch together and having some popcorn while the guys were at Nas's football practice. At 4:15, like clock work, Jay asks if she can go hang out with her friend at the park. Although it's hard for me to watch her grow up so much so fast, I almost always let her go even if I had made plans in my mind for us. Who wants to be that Mom who forces their kid to spend time with them? Plus I know that she doesn't get much time with her friends, so you know what? As Amy Duncan would say, Whatevs.
It'll only get worse over time, so for now I make sure to be up early enough to spend some time with her over breakfast before she leaves for school and stop whatever I'm doing when she deems it necessary to tell me about what so-and-so said or did, or what funny thing happened in class. Because to be honest, it doesn't happen as often as it used to! So I'll appreciate every moment and every little conversation we share. I never heard anyone say motherhood was easy, not before I became a mom and not after, but if someone could convey the feeling a mom feels when she is, inevitably, forced to let go, I could almost guarantee we'd have much less of a population problem in this world.
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