My Crazy Life

Lately I feel like I've been swallowed WHOLE by the busyness of Jay's life, Nas's life, Babe's life, and finally, my life. I've been feeling so scattered, my kitchen counters look just like what I imagine my brain looks like these days: papers from school, Nas's art projects strewn about, mail everywhere, just a chaotic mess! I thought working on myself would help me get things in order but it seems to have only flipped all-things-Natalie upside down!

Babe and I started working on our bedroom because it was just so boring. My final task was to paint ONE wall back in January. You think that's been done? We still have the tester stroke of sage-y green painted on our wall. We both love the color, maybe now, in March, I can get the REST of the wall to match that swatch!

My house used to be a mess - in my eyes - all the time when the kids were really young, but since they've gotten a little older I find it easier to keep things tidy...lol, tidy. Lately? This house has seemed to suck me under like quick sand just the way the rest of my life has! Just looking out of the office doors, where I sit, I can see a bunch of things that need to be taken care of! "Chaos isn't good for your health" says India Arie, well apparently working out to lose the "I put myself on the BOTTOM of my own priority list" weight isn't so healthy either! It's the very thing that is CAUSING the chaos!

Life is good, I really can't complain. But a house where I feel like everywhere I look there's a MESS to tend to makes me NUTTY! And that's just how I feel lately! Scatter brained, can't focus, can barely sit still long enough to blog or read, just crazy. Heck, I'm thankful I'm married to a man who doesn't hound me about cleaning up this and that - THAT would put me over the edge!

This month has to be different. I have to take the bull by the horns and control this life of mine. February felt like life lived me instead of me living my life. Something has got to give and an organized HOUSE is simply NOT an option.